top of page

Blossoms of Hope in the Garden of my Heart

Editor's Note: A warm thank you to Nikita who has again shared her passion for writing through grief. New seasons bring so much with them. How do you find the beauty in the every day in "a season marked by renewal and growth" while being "confronted with the reality of loss"?

As the world emerges from its winter hibernation and the smell of spring lingers in the air, I am still struggling with the heaviness of grief. They say April showers bring May flowers, but for me, my flowers have been picked, leaving behind an emptiness that seems to grow with each passing day.

In a season marked by renewal and growth, I am confronted with the reality of loss. Just a few short months ago, I said goodbye to my grandparents, my pillars of strength and wisdom in my life. And then, as if fate had not yet dealt its full hand, I was faced with the unbearable: the loss of my father. Their departures were sudden and unexpected, leaving a constant void that echoes in the corners of my heart.

While the pain of their absence weighs heavily on me, I find solace in the belief that they are now my angels, residing in a place far better than this earthly realm—where warmth abounds and material stress fades. As I prepare to graduate with my master’s degree next month, a milestone they eagerly anticipated and encouraged me to pursue, their absence is keenly felt. They will not be there to witness this achievement, to share in the joy and pride that I know they would have felt.

The coming of spring, with its vibrant blooms and warm sunshine, only serves to deepen my sense of loss. These were their favorite seasons, filled with cherished memories of laughter and love. And yet, even as I struggle to come to terms with their absence, I find solace in the beauty that surrounds me.

Grief is a journey fraught with twists and turns, highs, and lows. It is a testament to the depth of our love and the resilience of the human spirit. And though the road may be long and difficult, I know that I do not walk it alone.

Even in the darkest of nights, there are stars to guide us, and in the depths of our sorrow, there is love to sustain us. And so, as I embrace the warmth of spring, I carry with me the memories of those I have lost, knowing that they will forever reside in the garden of my heart.


As I sit on my front porch steps, I close my eyes—feeling the sun shining on my face and a beautiful, subtle breeze, here are the thoughts that cross my mind:

Amidst the pain and sorrow, there lies a glimmer of hope. In the gentle embrace of a spring breeze, I find comfort. In the tender caress of a sunbeam, I find peace. And in the quiet moments of reflection, I find the strength to carry on.

- Submitted by Nikita, Bridge C-14 MSW Placement Student


bottom of page